[mean nothing]
but.. i got some.
and i gave my two "best friends" one each today at school.

i miss her
i was listening to recordings
of my baby singing earlier.
i miss her so much its a pain an actual pain when i hear her little voice it breaks me it tears me up

i want scott
so badly

i know too many secrets
none of them good.

i don't want to read the next book in the true blood series.
because i don't have the book that follows on from it.
and it will like kill me not to know whats happening in the next book.

i had a psychology exam thing today
i bullshitted it. i hope i did okay.

i have a history exam tomorrow.

i need to go in the shower
i should think about scott.. that usually makes me go in the shower.
[hes a clean freak, so when i think about how he'd react to me not having had a shower for like 4 days, i kinda force myself to go in.]
but then
scott isnt here
so thinking about him
will just make me sad/angry.
...
//
so maybe that isnt such a good idea after all.

i feel sick

i don't want to go school tomorrow

i don't want to go to sleep tonight
i'll just have another bad dream
and i'm sick of dreaming.

i got a lipsil today off my mum.

i also got a pad.
and brioche

which i think was for everyone
and i've like
ended up eating most of it.

just me.

oh fucking well.

//
i want to wear a skirt to school tomorrow
but i know i won't

not just because it will be godawful weather again [ fucking england ]
but because i have a history exam and will have to sit still for like so long

also
i cbfa with the stares i would get off the lads.

##
dowson is a twat.
''

i should get undressed. and ready for bed.
and go in the fucking shower.

but i probably won't.
because i cant be fucked to move.

#/

so yeha.
tired.
bored.
ill.
scared.
got a bad head and an aching stomach.
got a stuffed up nose.

and i cant be fucking arsed.

*-#

no i'm not attention seeking with this either.
fuck off if you think that.

i just want to put how i feel.
because i don't do that often.

alot of you people on dA don't know much about my private life.
and i like to keep it that way. i don't broadcast my feelings alot.

so yeah
just fuck off.
9'#$^&

yes i'm slightly annoyed.
that's why the swearing.
sorry, but, get over it, yeah? >.<

;;
Allii asked me to do a journal, so i've done one
loveyouforeverandalwaysAllii

solongandgoodnight